SMILES :]

tsk

2009-11-19T10:08:00.001-08:00

I told you to help her , to pick her up when she is down.. I didnt fucking tell you to influence her...

Realize.

2009-11-18T09:45:00.000-08:00

Realized alot of things. Neglected almost everything. Tried very hard to make people happy. Making people happy is very very hard. Ever since small , my wish was to make people smile. I grew to think that smile means happiness. That was a very pathetic thought. I never realize people will lie. What i mean is , to be lied to. Fake Smiles. Just To cover what a person hides underneath there.

feels that i have been a pain in the neck and a annoying brat to alot of people. I apologize.

I must get used to being alone. not relationship alone. But no one to talk to. All my friends are walking. I'm going to shut myself from the world. Learn to be independent. Learn to not rely on a particular someone to help me when i need it. Now that, that person has regained friendship , i'm not needed anymore.

GoodBye.

Bored :(

2009-10-16T10:24:00.000-07:00

Day 2 : Its dam bored i swear , no one to actually chat with.

whats wrong.. please tell me

TellMeWhy.

2009-10-07T05:15:00.000-07:00

Ain't nothin' but a heartache

(: STUDY!

2009-10-03T07:04:00.000-07:00

Soar High and Far! ~

2009-09-26T06:56:00.000-07:00

Another.. Bitter irony..... why is this always happening to me..

i seriously start to hate r/s....

(: Fun Day!

2009-09-22T00:50:00.000-07:00

hello! Today was a hilarious day! (:

during assembly we are suppose to act happy so that a photo could be taken showing that we are celebrating the 3 Awards recieved by our teacher! everyone act happy!

after that had english , roflmao! mrs goh was xplaining to us tat english was from the bible , then cherie go take out her bible from her bag to flip to the page mrs goh was talking about , dam funny !

aft that was free period because Mr Chin never come , had maths .. Come on la , its nearing exams and you morons still make so much noise during the lesson.. it may be funny but its fking irritating.. Losers sia.

During DnT , me and aiguang finish our prototype ! (: was awesome , MengHwee analysis everything =P , Ken went to sleep .

EFL was hilarious , there was this yr1 counsellor! Dam cute ,Sunitha,Syazwan me was like talking about him all the time. I suggested that he had a overdose of botox! Like from the show " MY Wife and kids!". ALSO !!! Another hilarious thing was the music they played when welcoming the counsellors into the hall. it sounded like Star war music... HAHAHA! I swear its like DarthVader going to a death battle with Jedis . After that was to welcome i donno who to the stage , That Music sounded like Jurrasic Park's . The Ending where the survivors got off the island one!

Anyway , gotten over her for 2weeks!! Yipeey! haha ( P.S i didnt stead with her or anything.. don misunderstand , i just Gotten over crushing on her =P ) Tried to Say hi but nvm! she didnt see ! haha!

Had a Great day! , Thanks Sunitha , Renee , Syazwan , AiGuang, MengHwee , Sharvin , Kenneth , Yongjie and Last But Not Least JULIA A A A A A A A (Julizard =P )

Hey! 1st post of September

2009-09-17T06:43:00.000-07:00

hello!

its been so long since i blogged.

Recap: Nothing Much Happened! But I am Still as happy as ever. I have not gotten over the addiction with books ! and guess what!!!!!!!!!!!!! i bought a new book today! its by Shy Keenan ; Broken. Its a wonderful book! (: here are some photos i took!

06-09-2009

2009-09-05T22:00:00.001-07:00

Lately... dont have the mood to blog.. and not going to have the mood to do anything anyway.. its time to study..

27 August 2009

2009-08-27T03:45:00.000-07:00

Seriously cant take it anymore ...
what have i done?
i done so much for you , he didnt even do as much as i did for you , tried my best to make you proud , nothing seems enough for you... you tell me you dont desire for good grades.. but once i get bad grades.. you scold me... sure i play computer sometimes.. but yet you seem not to see me study at home.. i do , i really did study at home.. years past and i finally had enough of your demands.. 2yr3months3days.. ii only have to endure that long ...

August 21 2009

2009-08-21T23:11:00.000-07:00

Maybe i gotten over her... maybe my heart still doesnt want to..

Hey..

2009-08-18T01:06:00.000-07:00

Say, the Sky we saw that Day, the Scarlet Sky..
Do you remember it from that day?
We Made A promise and a vow while the early summer wind circled us..
and then.... we clung close together..

Your Forced Smile, Holds a elongated shadow.
I Pretend not to notice and continue on..

Empty Nights , mornings that will never arrive, i could see them from a mile away

While Holding the promise that we couldnt keep,
we shall take our first steps down our own paths

Last Day at NYP

2009-08-17T05:17:00.000-07:00

The Most Beautiful Last Day of My Poly Life

15-08-2009

2009-08-14T09:48:00.000-07:00

ahhhhhhhh... am i really growing up? gotten really sick of games nowadays... stupid growing up , i dont mind growing up physically lol.. but mentally is a no no for me... well everyone has to grow up.. this is so stupid..

12-08-2009

2009-08-12T05:26:00.000-07:00

Here i am , once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't Deny it , Can't Pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, Deep inside
But ... you wont get to see the tears i cry..

Its hard to live with this regret..
But i know if i can do it over ,
I would trade, give away all the words that i left unspoken in my heart
all to you...

I swear it's true..
i girl like you is impossible to find.

2009-08-11T06:43:00.001-07:00

Everybody’s hurt somebody before Everybody’s been hurt by somebody before

...

2009-08-09T04:11:00.000-07:00

You've Yet To Learn What Sadness Is, and you are just grasping what pain is..

N'day

2009-08-07T03:07:00.000-07:00

Happy 44bdae singapore!!

this yr my sku held lots of events :D and lots of games! it was super fun!
best of all is to see Mr Nathan Get Dunk and Mr Ng Singing Lol! and just nice i recorded both of this thing happening!

this is mr ng singing! woooooo!

August 05 - 2009 6.44pm

2009-08-05T03:44:00.000-07:00

hello !

been long since i blogged , bz with test and works :D

haha lost quite some weight due to constant xcercise!
argh..right ankle serious injured due to spraining it constantly for 4times xD
didnt let my ankle rest because of constant moving and bballing :D

well going to take some time off ! :D

ciaos

27-07-2009

2009-07-27T07:52:00.001-07:00

Love is a delicate thing that needs to be cosseted and protected . Love is not robust and love is not unyielding, Love can crumble under a few harsh words, Or be tossed away with a handful of careless actions, Love isnt a steadfast dog at all; Love is more like a pygmy mouse lemur..

26-07-2009

2009-07-25T22:41:00.000-07:00

I never realise how annoying she was....

24-07-09

2009-07-24T03:10:00.000-07:00

Another exhausting day! gotta push myself to 150%!

17-07-2009

2009-07-17T05:35:00.000-07:00

Exhausted..

16-07-2009

2009-07-16T05:29:00.000-07:00

I should be able to reach the world that i haven't seen..

14-07-2009

2009-07-15T03:39:00.000-07:00

random photos :D

Includes :My Story book , a Nerd with a moustache , Sussy , Papaya , Ah Gua , Mr Yong , and a very nice plate of cai tou gui

aww

2009-07-12T07:10:00.001-07:00

So Not Prepared for School.

Hello!

2009-07-10T02:37:00.000-07:00

Harlow! been a long time since i blogged =( . im lazy and dont have time T_T.. so much work and stuff

well the previous few days was pretty much tough and tiring .. so many new topic T_T but nevermind .. must study hard! to get into psychology course :D omg thinking about it is awesome! lala play wit people mind and know what others are thinking is superb!

well today played b-ball during PE and after schoo played with john , tinghe, QQ , dave , brandon,brendon , yuan sheng they all :D haha i DUNKED! (with the help of a chair, BUT STILL i was awesome ok)
REFLECTION: feeling of dunking is like flying.. ever thought of floating in air :D haha when i dunked i feeel like everything is slowed down and i can actually aim LOL!!! omg its like matrix! IM NOT EXAGERATING! IS TRUE! everything slowed down when im dunking! haha

well it was total awesomness ness ness :D

well. i promised zhi cai and yj they all that i will talk to her on monday :D ! i shalll buck up my confidence ! the passage mr chin gave boost my confidence too :D well gonna talk to her .. maybe a smile and a wave will do :D haha hope she says hi to .. if not is total awkward lo!

lalala im so happy , happy happy happy! LOLZXZXZXZX

Tata im going to have a long nap now :D byebye!

Hellos!

2009-06-10T20:54:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone,

To:Guest from my chatbox , well this blog is just to rant , dont worry , i dont mean what i say at my previous post LOL! i rant rant rant , better than shouting at their faces telling them i am angry.. and just use 1 post to type out all , cause you are flooding my chatbox :D

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------10JUNE2009

Well , went out wit yongjie,ken,nic,stanly,jq,mingen to watch Terminator :Salvation at The cathay , LOL! so far sia! nvm :D we all had fun! lol We were eating at the Kopitiam at plazaa sing .. so we eat and eat and eat , then nicholas started to talk. but when he did , he spit saliva on yongjie's hand and nic didnt notice so he continue talking .. we all saw la! LOL then we all saying EEEEEEEEEEE!! nicholas you dam disgusting sia! lol then he saw yongjie's hand got saliva lol! then he use his hand go rub rub rub! LOL then spreading the saliva ! HAHA! then JQ took a photo of yongjie's face and edited it .. looks alot like mas selamat! LOL!well then went home and had western food for dinner ..

Byes,
Jin

FUCK IT LA CCB

2009-06-06T22:01:00.000-07:00

I CANT FUCKING TAKE IT ANYMORE LA!! NAH BEI CHEY BYE!!!

FUCK YOU FATHER!
FUCK YOU MOTHER!

A FATHER WHO ONLY TALK LIKE HE VERY GOOD LIDDAT , BUT PLEASE LA LOOK AT A MIRROR THEN TALK TO ME LEH! I ACHIEVE MORE THAN YOU! SO FUCKING SHUT UP! AND FUCK YOURSELF !

MY MOTHER IS NOT BAD BUT STOP FUCKING EXAGERATING THINGS AND STOP PUTTING WORDS INTO MY MOUTH!!!

I REALLY CANT TAKE IT LIAO ! CCB

WTF? JUST BECAUSE I HEARD SOMETHING WRONG THEN WANT FUCKING SCOD ME LIKE A DOG ISIT? NAH BEI!

JUST WAIT! JUST WAIT TILL I AM 18 YR OLD! IM FUCKING MOVING OUT! __

1more day

2009-06-04T02:26:00.001-07:00

Well , i guess tmrw is the last day to talk to her! i hope i can do it, hope i dont dao-ed.. that would be omg embarassing! >.<>

Chinese O level papers :D

2009-06-01T04:08:00.001-07:00

Haha today :D my class and 4/7 took the Chinese o level paper 2009 :D IT WAS PRETTY much easy ! omg la! didnt xpect it to be easy lo! after all mr chin's worksheet is hell harder than o level paper!

haha heres some pic i took some while ago :D

All of this were taken on the cruise or on the way to the cruise :D

JJ is exhausted and sad

2009-05-29T07:34:00.000-07:00

tsk..... i suck...

haish... wasted a pretty good chance..

well... life is short..

im sick and tired...

mostly tired i guess..

well goodnight world..

please let me rewind time

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!

2009-05-10T04:52:00.000-07:00

SPECIAL POST :D im back just to wish the Mothers all over the world a very happy Mother Day =]

and i would like to wish my mommy to have a successful concert in hongkong =] all the best mommy! i love my mommy! :D she is the best!

[A mother has always been there for us]
[whether we are rich or poor]
[dumb or clever]
[pretty or ugly]
[crippled or dying]
a mother is nothing like a gf or bf you guys have
because a mother would always be there for you no mattar what , standing by your side .

So treasure you mommy :D NOW GO AND HUG THEM NOW AND TELL THEM YOU LOVE THEM.
show them you appreciate them!

Ciaos
j.asura

BYE WORLD!

2009-05-05T02:10:00.000-07:00

Hello!! EXAM TIME! :D hehe and o level chinese too!

BYE WORLD! i wont be blogging untill everything is done :D

byebye!

LOVE

2009-04-25T23:13:00.000-07:00

There's something in this world that no one has seen before,

It is gentle and sweet,

Maybe if it could be seen,

everyone would fight over it.

That's why no one has even seen it,

The world hid it so that no one could get their hands on it easily.

However , someday , someone will find it.

The person who deserves it the most will dfinitely find it.

6more months and she will be gone ..

2009-04-23T02:59:00.000-07:00

hello.... its not such a great day
nor is it ever going to be..

imagining not see-ing her ever again makes me want to go back in time and cherish the time where i could just talk to her and hadnt been such a dickface pussy..

well , i lost the chance ... too bad ii guess ..

gonna talk to her soon , maybe ask her out.. hope she accepts..

well if she doesnt , its not the end of the world right?

" i 5683 You , 24274772 2469 786 34 , You 273 69 One 263 6659 Love"
Ciaos,
J

Sickkk

2009-04-14T06:07:00.000-07:00

HeyHey!! im super sick today! haish!! need borrow alot of tissue and buy alot of tissue!! haha

its ok la the day , had DnT talked alot with john , dave and kenneth haha then keep getting poked and hit on the head by Mr Sim and Mrs Chua , actually Mr Sim did the poking! haha but im happy , finished my Wine Holder :D a few flaws but its nice enough for me :D

After that was English , usual , rarjini got pissed but haha she never ever scold me b4 so i have no grudge against her :D shes a nice teacher! at least much better than you know who :D if you dont its Mrs Goh ! didnt go down for recess cause i scared i go down cant come up le ! :D

after recess was chem (shall not talk about it) and then it was maths , the maths lasted for 1hour30min cause mr kumar want do a final revision for maths test :D haha MR KUMAR ROCKS! After that went to yj class to nag him to go home cause im freaking sick! then we going down from G.O i saw her :D heyhey i always wanted to say Hello to her at least but today i really cant cause i have a tomato for a nose and its kinda weird to suddenly say hello! WHAT IF I MALU AND SNEEZE! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! haha i shall do it sometime soon or ii will not have the chance to.. :D

Ciaos, time to revise maths

J.

THURSDAY-GOOD FRIDAY!

2009-04-10T05:41:00.000-07:00

HeyHey!!!!! Thursday Rocks! YOU KNOW WHY! ITS THE EVE TO GOOD FRIDAY :D:D:D:D The day ends at 1.10pm! Wohooo!! then so cool , went to 4/7 to watch Yongrui play the videos , Micheal Jackson!!! The King Of MoonWalk :D After that watched ♥Crayon Shin♥ ( La Bi Xiao Xin) :D Super funny!!

After that went to catch a movie with the gang :D We wanted to watch Sniper but then i dont quite like the show so we want to catch The Knowing! ITS WORH IT!!!! If there is a rating i would give 4/5 ☻ The Show was so addictive! i want to watch it again ,

Then went home to game with the gang again :D not bad worh i got 4th place.....

Called the crew to ask for the next meeting and then went to sleep :D:D

AWESOME YEAH! My life is getting better :D 5 a1 here i come :D

Ciaos
[J.]

PISSED

2009-04-05T06:42:00.000-07:00

im fucking pissed ... you wanna know why? BECAUSE SOME PEOPLE JUST LIKE TO SPEND ALOT! IM NOT FUCKING SAYING I SPEND VERY LITTLE ! BUT AT LEAST I DONT SPEND SO MUCH AS THOSE FUCKING LOSERS ! I DONT CARE IF YOU ARE READING THIS, you know why? BECAUSE I JUST DONT FUCKING CARE __ read all you want you fucking dim wits or should i say Morons , SPEND LA! i just wanna ask , did you ever earn as much as you lost? Dont ever say "if only i did this" or "if only i did that" , You know why ? CAUSE YOU CAN GO BACK IN TO THE PAST! " if " is just a fucking word ! YOU CANT USE A GOD DAM WORD TO CHANGE TIME! say all the "if" you want and you cant change what you caused....

spend so much money on electronics! YEA LA YOU WANT SAY I ALSO SPEND SO MUCH ON ELECTRONIC! SO? I DONNO HOW TO TAKE CARE OF MY OWN STUFFS, AT LEAST I NOT LIKE YOU TWO WHO SPEND SO MUCH MONEY ON OTHER THINGS! GOD DAM YOU TWO. ONE WHO ALWAYS GOES OUT AND NEVER SPEND TIME WITH FAMILY, THE OTHER PLAY STOCKMARKET UNTILL LOSE SO MUCH MONEY

IF YOU TWO READING THIS :D GOOD FOR YOU! READ ALL YOU WANT , MAKE SACARSTIC REMARKS ALL YOU WANT! I JUST DONT FUCKING CARE ANYMORE :D

IM NOT GOING TO SIT THERE AND ACT LIKE A GOODY GOOD BOY ANYMORE! IM GROWN UP! YOU ONCE SAID YOU WONT COMPARE ME WITH OTHER PEOPLE AND DONT COMPARE YOURSELF WITH OTHER PEOPLE But... HAHAHA YOU DID IT YOU KEEP COMPARING ME WITH THAT BITCHY COUSIN OF MINE WHICH THINKS SHE IS THE WORLD :D BURN IN HELL :D

IM GOING TO GROW UP! NOT GOING TO LET YOU TWO PUSH ME AROUND !

I SHAL BLOG UNTILL HERE ! CAUSE THEY JUST bloody hell walked in .... lol

[ If you two are reading this , must be shock ?] [ i have been saving this inside me for so long]
Enjoy it , Savour it not live with it

נ.

CONFESSION PLAYGROUNDS

2009-04-03T06:12:00.000-07:00

Haha!!!! This morning come school sit there nothing to do :D but then its not bad! I KNEW IT WOULD BE A GOOD DAY! AND IT WAS! anyway i pity 4/7 , Mr Kam so fierce , Poor Bryan (viper) haha My Class rocks :D Mr Chin Rocks too!

Then during assembly talk talk talk talk talk! SO IRRITATING! From the sky blueblue untill Sun come out sia! talk so much! I was sweating(actually i dont sweat much) , but Sausage lips was worst! HE SWEATING LIKE NO TML! haha then go class MissRarjini Scold us =( nvm! She rocks , she never scold me b4 :D After that was some other boring lesson then recess liao! Recess ate with john they all and then the Stupid Dog Smell came =P (jiahua giving out Body Odour) ('-') Then it was maths lesson :D MR KUMAR ROCKS HAHA! HE STILL HAS THE WHITE STAIN ON HIS BUTT!!! i said Kenneth kissed his butt so it became white !

After that headed to hub wit Yongjie , kenneth and nic to NTUC , lame foo dog want buy socks haha! then we went out of hub and met ZhiCai And AiHui and 2 stalkers stalking them :D SO yongjie ,kenneth and i went to stalk the stalker whose stalking zc and aihui :D ! after 20min , we found zhicai and aihui but no stalker found =(

We joined zhicai and aihui in search of buying new bags :D haha then we headed to playground opposite KFC :D HAHA WE HAD SO MUCH FUN! WE confessed on who we hate and who we spend more time wit :D and then! KENNETH AND ZHICAI BECAME FRIENDS :D zhicai and kenneth looks good tgt :D i always have a thought that they hate each other haha donno why too :D
True Friends ---> Yongjie, Kenneth , ZhiCai, AiHui :D
lalala im so happy it was so awesome today :D we chatted for 3hours or more i donno haha! never actually counted but time passed and i headed back home :D

Ciaos im going to play with yongjie le :D

J.

Life is Great with true friends :D

BlueSky

2009-03-29T06:54:00.000-07:00

Hey all!! haha it was a weird week :D Made some mistake in my life :[ haha but hey! its ok :D we all make mistakes .... And MeiMei Cheer up :D life aint that bad without love ya know! hahahahaha! Kor is Here :D

Well im only going to talk about what happened today :D This Early in the morning woke up at around 12 haha! im a lazy bum on sunday! then after that! my bro went to fetch xm over to eat breakfast! :D haha we ate at the kopitiam near my block! The roti-prata there ROCKS! :D i luv it yo!

After that we came up and we including xm played D2 :D hahah Fun sia! she gong gong de! then donno what to do and keep running and dying everywhere with lots of mob :D

After that did 40 pumpings and went to take a icy shower :D love the new shower dad! thanks haha! AFTER DINNER WHICH ROCKS! haha

We all including daddy Watched Marley and Me tgt :D The movie is just plain awesome! Its so touching , Marley brings out the best and worst in a person's life .. But after all the thing he did , he thought people alot of things! I saw my bro and xm crying haha i donno whether daddy cried anot >.<>

heres some shoutout:

YongJie+POA students : Good Luck and Reach the sky for tmrw's POA test!
Camilia + Sunitha: Kick Unity Sec's Ass yo!

Ciaos , im going to study for tml hist test!

J.
Take My Hand and i will take you to that Blue Blue Sky in which we shall burn our dreams into the skylines

ahahah long time le

2009-03-22T01:21:00.001-07:00

Haha! its been some time since i blogged , i was dam busy lately haha
lets recap!!!

Tuesday: went to school for March Games , First match was 4/1 VS 4/6 , haha lets not talk about that , it was fun but then i think i was being unfair... should have let them score a few then make the score look nicer :D haha I Shall not tell you the real score .. After that match it was 4/6 VS 4/7 , THAT MATCH WAS SUPER INTENSE LA! They were leading at first , then 4/6 started to chase up!!!! RAWR!! super intense , in the end the score was 19-18 !!! 4/6 won :D good job 4/7 , you guys were the toughest!!

wednesday: Whole body hurt hurt hurt

Thursday: TIME TO VERSUS A VERY STRONG CLASS!! 4/5!! wohooo!! to summarise everything , we got trashed , i injured a person , we lost , we knew we would lost , and blah blah blah AHAH!! dam down sia after we lost , but nvm , 4/5 rocks , but they lost to 4/4 after that!!

Friday: HAHAHA this is the best!! Went to Pulau Ubin with , Yongjie,Jieqin,mingen,jw,Aihui,nicholas,stanly,senwee,zhicai,jason!!!! it rocks yo! but then when we first arrived , it was raining , haha we all camped at the food store , we ordered fried chicken , I LOVE CHICKEN!!!!!!!! but i love Live Duck more :D they are cute little feathery birds which go QUACk , ISNT IT AWESOME!! WHERE CAN YOU FIND ANOTHER THING THAT GOES QUACK!! ... okkkkk out of point ...... then after that we rent bicycle we rode around pulau ubin :D BUT GOD DAMMIT!! ALOT OF MOSQUITO BITE!!!! now i still scratching my arms LOL! stupid mosquito!

haha after resting we head on to Chew Jawa , that is the place where the 8-storey Bird Watch Tower is , THATS THE BEST SCENERY SPOT EVER!! you aint gonna find no better scenery at the top of the tower :D haha going to post the photo below :D

Ciaos
J.Jlηx

MeiMei!!!!! BECAREFUL FALL OFF THE SHIP , she brave sia haha!!

LOL!! Saman-wee :D tehehehhe

CrossCountry Rocks!!!!!!!

2009-03-13T21:46:00.001-07:00

Hahahaha! Helloooooooooooooooooooooooooooos! super happy :D Yesterday Cross country heres a recap of what happened yesterday!

early in the morning i woke up hahahah then sms-ed yongjie to wake that fat ass up =P then he toke his own sweet time :D hahah he need put on some "makeup" to get himself ready hahaha
then we were super late =P then the bus 169 went by , LOL! whole bus is full of yellow shirt people HAHAHAHAHAHA but it was full , in the end we took 166 lo ...

haha waited and waited and waited for sec 4 boys to run! lol then when we near the starting mark , it was sec4 girl's turn .. ahahah sunitha and some other girl were at the front! LOL then when the whistle was blown , SUNITHA RAN LIKE SUPER FAST SIA!!! WOOT GOOOO SUNITHA !!

haha then sec4 boys turn liao hahaha i lasted only 2km and then cannot tahan anymore hahaha! so walked with syazwan untill last 100metre ! WHAT A GOOD FRIEND :D haha then when it was 100metre , i sped away haha! syazwan cannot catch up =P
IT WAS SUPER FUN!!!!!!!!!! but then i never take any picture =( sad sad sad! nevermind there is still next year , the last year in school without her =( haisshhhhhhhhhhhhhhh and xinlin did not run lol , she was sick i think

hahaa then reached home took a bath and chat with grace ! hahah she super funny and she look better wearing contact lenses... then i slept for 16hours and woke up this morning 6 lol! I AM FULLY RECOVERED FROM ALL THE INJURIES !! I AM SUPER JJ!

i shall now go jogging !

Ciaos
J

Horizon to another new bright day :D

Tehehe

2009-03-09T07:31:00.001-07:00

Haish , not quite in the mood to blog today , still moody from not having enough confident to talk to her ... tehehehehe :D

what am i going to do yo!

im soooooooooooo sad! tehehehhe :]]

Tags Reply-
jaclyn: Haha thanks yo! and long time never talk to you ler!
kenneth: ORH! you must be the one who sold drugs to woman to cause them to produce scent right?!?!?!?! evil druglord !

Denise: THANKS JIE!
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still remember her telling me , a picute speaks a million word :]]

<--looks like a waterfall

<-- i swear to god this looks like ice cream when you are standing where i am standing!

Pissed

2009-03-08T07:59:00.000-07:00

I was really pissed yesterday and today... but thanks to two wonderful girl , two girl that i really can trust can count on :D Thanks Julia and Denise :D without you two i would be dead yo! love you two !!

my brother and father is so unreasonable !! but i shall not talk about it =) do not want to have a grudge against them or anything... wante dto give up on myself yesterday ... thanks to julia , she comforted me =) really can count on her.. and today when those to Morons pissed me , Denise comforted me =)

just studied finish maths =) really confident to score high for tmrw test :] wish me luck yo! haha played with bryan just now =) his game really rock ! i swear it will become popular =)

ah... its already march... and aprill is coming.. soon her o's will come , and then she will be gone from my life... Sad isnt it ? ah i shall not give up on her!

heres something i heard from someone wise =)

-Even if we want to flee from the pain and forget everything ,what awaits us is obstruction , slowing us from moving forward.

i think it is true... it really is true

i am going to roll on my bed now

Ciaos
-J

BlueSaturday

2009-03-07T07:54:00.000-08:00

Woke up early in the morning, quite boring haha.... but then it started to rain heavily just as i finished my breakfast , lol i like rain .. i mean i like all kinds of weather , the weather is somehow like a earth's emotion , when the earth is sad , it cries , when the Earth is in one hell of a happy mood , it Shines very brightly , when the Earth is full of thoughts , its hazzy . its so intresting :D

The rain ended at 4 :D then chatted with Grace hahaha! her birthday is on the SYF .. poor thing ! shall buy her something nice :D its her sweet 16! mine is very far away :D actually i dont really want my birthday to come ... i wish it will never come ...tehehehe :D grace knows why =)

Then its night .. Mom called me :D she fell down in guang zhou ! OMFG! she really clumsy and bad luck , just a week ago she got fish bone in her throat ... really want to be by my mom's side to take care of her... see-ing her work like this makes my heart hurt... Not like someone who just sits at home looking at the stock market and nag at me when "he" is free... So when my brother and father came home .. its took me sometime to tell them cause i just remembered , then the two dickheads scold me say why didnt i tell them earlier , lol i ignore them , then they start saying why now then tell me , i told them " If i never tell you now , you wont call mommy? " then my fucking brother said " you blaming us now? " lol i got pissed off and said " Duh " then the two of them pissed off at me ... its like FUCK THEM! its not my fault , if i never tell them , i swear to god they will never call Mom , especially that girlfriend come first brother.... burn in hell.. i curse you ..

i shall now go scream into my pillow...

Ciaos
-J

heres some photo i took on friday

Yo Tml is friday already!!

2009-03-05T05:59:00.000-08:00

oh come on!!! tml is friday already... Please !!! dont let this year pass so fast... beg you god!

tags reply

Joweh:Haha but at least you can see it! so your eyes are good :D
JiHui: Yo ! long time never talk to you liao!
Vanessa a.k.a Uno Partner : hahaha! yea lets uno again sometime :D
Jieqin: @#$%^& is not a bad word yo! haha and no theres no such thing as increase pokes XD! haha its true you know! people are attracted to opposite gender's scent lol! saw it on tv :D

Thursday: Haha woke up at 5.30 .. then its still early and theres no breakfast! SO I ROLLED AROUND MY BED!! AWESOME THING TO DO YO! you should all try it =P

then wake up ate egg sandwich , drank my milo , and went to school... My life is so plain and simple, just hope after having her... it would be better!! AHHH IM SO @#$%^& up! haha! then after assembly walked up to class lo! SHE WAS BEHIND ME! WOHOOO but then leg feel weak then faster walk up if not later faint haha! :D Haha! then after school slack around class lo .. then the stupid *mok* came at 2.30 ! WTH! remedial suppose to start at 2 leh! then she come so late and went at 3! ZzZz! lazy woman! Haha

NICHOLAS I HAVE CAUGHT YOU ON CAM!

<--- RAIN hahahaa!!!

took this under my block

<-- mommy theres a hole in the sky =P

Skyway Avenue - We the kings [super nice song]

She said let's change our luck

This night is all we've got

Drive fast until we crash

This dead end life

Sweet dreams that won't come true

I'd leave it all for you

Brick walls are closing in

Let's make a run tonight

Blinded by the lights

Hold you through forever

Won't let you go'

Cause if you jump

I will jump too

We will fall together

From the building's ledge

Never looking back at what we've done

We'll say it was love'

Cause I would die for you

On skyway avenue

She said don't change your mind

Let's leave this town behind

We'll race right off the cliff

They will remember this

It all got so mundane

With you I'm back again

Just take me by the hand

We're close to the edge

Blinded by the lights

Hold you through forever

Won't let you go'

Cause if you jump I will jump too

We will fall together

From the building's ledge

Never looking back at what we've done

We'll say it was love'

Cause I would die for you

On skyway avenue

Where are your guts to fly?

Soaring through, through the night

And if you take that last step

I'll follow youLeave the edge and fly

We're finally alive'

Cause if you jump

I will jump too

We will fall together

From the building's ledge

Never looking back at what we've done

We'll say it was love'

Cause I would die for you

On skyway avenue

So what's left to prove

We have made it through

Ciaos
--J

Regret

2009-03-04T02:55:00.000-08:00

i regret telling her those stupid thing... that i sms-ed her because i needed someone to talk to or something... i should've just told her i never stopped messaging her was because i really like her and want a spot in her heart.... but its too late.. i just hope things will turn out fine...

Ciaos
J

[heres a picture i took on my way home]

Fight on!

2009-03-03T04:04:00.000-08:00

i was about to give up..... i regreted confessing to her , if i never confessed to her , i would at least have the courage to look at her , but now i dont even dare to look at her...

but then jq send me this video , the link is http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iHititQJYGY&feature=related .... this is what the handicapped person said : Sometime when you fall down , you must climb up , if not , you cant get anywhere , Well i tell you there is sometime in life , when you fall down , you feel like you dont have the strength to get back up , i am now down here with no arm and no legs , it would be impossible for me to get back up , but its not . You see , i will try 100time to get up .. and if i fail 100 times , if i fail and give up , Do you think i'm ever going to get up? No! but if i fail and i try again and again and again ... but i would like to let you know its not the end , it mattars how you are going to finish .... Are you going to finish strong? you will find that strength to get back up , *man , use his head to get back up , without his hands or legs* "

after see-ing this ... i feel that i should FIGHT ON!!! PERSERVERE!!! I CANT GIVE UP NOW!! AFTER ALL I HAVE BEEN THROUGH BRINGING UP MY COURAGE TO TELL HER! thanks jq , always can count on you .. and always know-ing you will be there.. :D

Ciaos
J

Hehe its the best monday!

2009-03-02T06:03:00.001-08:00

hehe!wassup you all!!

i was reading some article and i came upon this ,

What is love? David Icke said: "Infinite Love is the Only Truth Everything Else is Illusion." However, scientists tried to explain love using our genes as the base of the medical study. Basically, they found that we are attracted to personas that are genetically immune to diseases and weaknesses that we are not. However, Alchemy teaches us completely different approach. Alchemy or old sacred studies believe that our body (Personal Self) is build around four energies (or four egos) that make up our Personal Self (our body). Physical Energy with its Needs, Sensational with its Desires, Emotional with its Feelings and Intellectual Energy with its Ideas. To reach Higher Self (our soul) you must balance these four energies in your body. Since this is very hard to do, we usually seek for someone (soul mate) that will help us achieve Higher Existence (same like our genes our soul mate’s energies could fill half empty energies and empty our half spilling energies). Alchemy believes that we are not born with the soul, only with the seed of spirituality, and that our purpose on this planet is to find our souls or our Higher Self. You wanted to make gold from the ordinary metal? Well finding love is the only solution or maybe you should meditate till you find your true balancing power.

to me this is all bullcrap! you cant explain love by just saying some stupid theory or formulae! Love is not meant to be found out what it is yo! If you find out what is love , what does it do you ? can you make someone you love fall in love wit you? :D tehehehe no right? haha love is just something you feel deep inside your mind and heart , when you see that person you love your heart pounds very very fast :D , you cant stop thinking about that person all day long! I think ! those who want to find out what really is love , does not have someone they love =X hehe

i shall now go roll around on my bed and wait for the 11o clock show on OkTo !!

Ciaos
J

Saturday again!

2009-02-28T04:52:00.000-08:00

Hello! its been a few days since i blogged haha!! i was very very busy! this post shall be quite a long one to cover up for this few days of M.I.A =P

Thursday : Early in the morning reach school super tired.... but hey good ! good news , mrs goh not going to teach us , a trainee teacher going to take over our class :] mrs goh tell us that if any teacher can teach us , that teacher can teach all the other classes in the school! haha you know what ! , even though its kinda a insult! but i shall take it as a compliment! its like we are the obstacle between the teacher getting to teach and the teacher not getting to teach :] or get a job!! im so proud! then after school we are suppose to go newspaper collection then it started to rain soooooo heavily! haha its a good thing , i love the rain! but then everyone was boo-ing when the announcment was made that it was canceled haha!

Friday : ahh !!! friday liao ! so fast sia its like yst was monday LOL! i think this year is going to pass very fast... I pray to god , please make it very slow... i dont want to see her going off.... please..

Saturday(today) : early in the morning decided to go for a jog but then very tired siol! MY LEGS didnt want to move lol! then decided to slack for today and go for running first thing in the morning tml! haha had a nice chat with jq a.k.a RUBBER DUCKY , haha i am going to change to a nicer person! look out world here comes another Kind person!

im going to roll around on my bed liao LOL!

Ciaos
j

Wednesday History Test!!

2009-02-25T06:45:00.000-08:00

Oh my ... today i had history test the first thing in the morning , i packed my stuff and went to the libary to take the test :]] the essay question was eassyyyyyyy but then the source base question are stupid and hard !

after that is english lesson , then got english oracy!! haha Elan's oracy dam super funny! haha even the old scary witch laughed LOL! then it was alien's turn to do oracy LOL! HE LOOKS LIKE CHEE HON! HE HAS A BIG BIG BIG BIG MOUTH! LOL! this proves that Space Aliens have big mouth :)) tehheeheh

after school plug my phone to the classroom speakers and then.... DISCO TIME!!!! i blast so loud it could be hurt at the classroom below!! haha!!!

then yongjie want go home lo! asshole so early want go home... then SausageLips sms me say "she" is at the canteen , but then i dont want go because it will be like dam awkward , after confessing i got even more scared to talk to her... stupid , shouldnt have confessed , it makes thing worst and i think she hates me LOL! hahaha i donno la , i am so clumsy when it comes to love :((

Andersen IceCream Yo!

2009-02-23T03:49:00.000-08:00

This mrning the first lesson is 2hour DnT .... was sms-ing Denise :]] haha she has short legs XD ..
then after that when i drill hole on my word piece, I burnt my hands =(( got blisters on my middle finger! LOL and my thumb! i cant write -.- every time i write i would scream ._.

haha in the end couldnt take the history test =( study so hard in the end cannot do ... well i would have to retest on wed :]

After school went to eat lunch with Davis , yongjie , nic and kenneth ... after that took bus to hub to eat ANDERSEN ICE CREAM!!!
OMG its like the best ice-cream, then saw her walking past with her friends , dont dare look haha!! i suck =))

Im going to clean my room now!

Ciaos
.J

Fuck "him"

2009-02-22T03:52:00.000-08:00

I am so fucking pissed , I CAN JUST RIPE SOMEONE APART! !@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*(!!!!!!!

Early in the morning wake up go jogging , he whin this whin that , im ok with that , after jogging he says " so fast come back up? so lousy , run for such a short time come back " i am dam pissed..... i ignored him , after that i started to do my homework at 5pm , he came in and said off your computer if you want to do your homework .... WTF i like to do hw with the com beside me .. it helps me concentrate ... i continue to take in his "advices" , Yongjie and i played dota lo , i told him i wait awhile then eat dinner , i playing .. i want eat later ... then after 40min he come he scream at me and say WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU , ask you eat also need to beg isit! Anger me more i swear to you i throw away the internet , i told him awhile more pls .... 5minutes later, he came in screaming say DONT BOTHER COMING OUT I THREW AWAY ALL THE FOOD ! FIND YOUR OWN WAY FOR FOOD I DONT CARE . i ignored him .. im so fucking pissed.... After that he came in and said to me Becareful , i throw away your computer tml when you go school ... then he said you told me you will study at 6 , now what time... ITS LIKE WTF! MY OWN STUDY NEED HIM CARE AH #$%^&* EVERYTIME I STUDY , HE THINK ITS NOT GOOD ENOUGH! WHEN I DONT WANT STUDY AND I WANT REST , HE FORCE ME STUDY! WTF , I want study he call me do this do tt, when i want to rest , he want me study! WTF IS WRONG WIT HIM! HE TREAT MY BROTHER SO GOOD EVEN THOUGH MY BROTHER BARELY AT HOME AND TREAT HIM SO BADLY!

WHAT IS THIS! I TRY MY BEST ALL THE TIME TO IMPRESS HIM WITH MY RESULTS AND MY STUDIES ... MY BROTHER ONCE EVEN THREATENED HE WILL WHACK MY FATHER FOR BUSTING MY BROTHER'S SECRET TO HIS GF ... THEN MY FATHER STILL TREAT HIM SO WELL....
MY MOM IS NEVER AT HOME, i really need someone to be there...

FlagDay :]

2009-02-21T00:30:00.001-08:00

Stupid CIP , stupid school , need to wake up so early in the morning ON SATURDAY!
omg ..saturday is my off day!

met up with syazwan , dylan , sausage lip and gabriel at amk mrt station , then we went to collect the stupid can ... then me , stanly and john went to walk around hub lo.... we ate at S11
lol found out john can eat quite alot haha!

then we slack all around amk lo HAHA! after that we slacked at hub , i went to buy icecream , lol john and some other friends talking

after that go home lo, so sian.... i wish she knows how much i love her :]]
but its impossible lah haha! someone like her with someone like me its like North pole and south pole

i shall go emo :]

Ciaos
.J

It's Friday ._.

2009-02-20T02:22:00.000-08:00

Eeeeyer!! Early in the morning ENGLISH LESSON!!! Stupid Goh!! suddenly start scolding everyon! For no reason !!! it was like she was born angry! =X

the second lesson is maths! Today we learn compound interest and simple interest :]]
third lesson is chemistry!! OMG copper(II)sulphate Crystals! its soo cool!
After recess is DnT~~ me , hannah , Nisa and Hafiz took part in a lego designing contest!! rewards $1000 lego product leh!!! Awesome!

then after school me and yongjie go kfc =P wanted to go his house to get thing but lazy ! Tmrw flagday liao! need wake up early in the morning , i shall now go read my storybook

Ciaos-
J

In the Mood

2009-02-19T04:08:00.000-08:00

Woke up early in the morning almost late !!

SSHE test: ok lah , but then i scared i write not enough LOL! kenneth wrote 1 full page for essay question !

English Test : Not bad ! memorise all the parts of speech!

Chemistry remedial was not bad! LOL I MADE Copper Sulphate crystal LOL! i took a video on the process but! i have no idea how to post it!

After remedial , went to class to find yongjie and go home , from going home became slacking in class , we planning the trips to Pulua Ubin , i am going to call alot of people!!! anyone who want can call me :]] ...I going to call "her" to go too :] Wish me Luck
im going to bath now!

Ciaos!
J

This is how my first post will look like

2009-02-17T23:36:00.000-08:00

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO i have a blog :P

IM BLOGGING!!!!!
ISNT THAT WONDERFUL ._.